What a difference a year makes.

At this time, last year, I was waiting on results from a CVS test to let me know whether or not my pregnancy was viable. It was not.

Yesterday, I gave my narrative in support of an amicus brief being written for the Supreme Court concerning June Medical Services v. Gee, a case challenging a Louisiana law identical to the Texas law the Court struck down in Whole Woman’s Health just a few years ago.

113 women in the legal profession who had abortions came forward as amici during the consideration of Whole Woman’s Health to explain to the Court how safe and legal access to abortion care was critical to their lives and careers, and to the legal profession itself. Their brief received coverage by multiple high-visibility, reputable, national media outlets, and is believed to have contributed a critical perspective to the Court and the public. It is hoped that this brief will provide some of the support necessary for continuing protection of women’s reproductive rights in America.


As a female member of the legal community, I explained why I terminated a wanted pregnancy, why I think the right to safe, legal abortion is important for all American women, and why it matters to me that my narrative be included.  Having already shared my personal narrative of what occurred last year, I want to share the last bit with you.

I wrote, “It means a lot to me to identify myself as a member of the legal profession who has had an abortion because I am now 15 weeks pregnant with another daughter, after the loss of my last. I have to be brave enough to tell our story loudly, so that she can avoid unnecessary suffering at the hands of people who do not value her as more than a brood mare. Her sister did not die because I didn’t want a child. Her sister died because I had to make the choice between the possibility of giving birth to a child who would certainly die a painful death within 2 years and/or kill me in the process of childbirth — and a guarantee of living, which would give rise to the possibility of future, healthy children. It’s not fair that any woman should have to look at a future of legal punishment for being faced with that terrible choice — especially when that choice was not made alone, but with the counsel of a respected high-risk maternal-fetal medicine doctor and her loving husband.  I’m honor and duty-bound to help protect the right to that medical care, and the gift of disability gives me the courage to do so without fear of comeuppance that could affect my career.”

To be honest, talking about being a part of this amicus brief is not how I envisioned announcing my viable, healthy pregnancy on this blog, but it feels right… Kinda like using Playdoh to create a baking soda & vinegar volcano seemed like the right way to announce to Henry that he is having a sister. (Seriously, you should click that link. The video is pretty damn cute, and I can’t imbed it here without paying extra to WordPress.)

Baby gender reveal illustration.

I’m due May 2nd or 3rd (depending on which set of ultrasounds you’re looking at). Funny enough, that’s the same due date that Henry had. So, it’s entirely possible that he’ll end up with a sibling as birthday present. If I get the luxury of scheduling a c-section and biology cooperates, I’ll give them separate days, for sure. May the 4th seems great for geek-positive reasons, though I’m not convinced that I want to name her “Leia,” and “Rey” is just right out.

My biggest fears, during this pregnancy, have to do with a medical condition that I was diagnosed with in January of 2018, which didn’t become terribly concerning to me until this pregnancy. I was so busy being excited that I didn’t have any cancers after my bone marrow biopsy that being worried about Primary Immunodeficiency (Common Variable Immune Deficiency most likely being my specific PI) didn’t even ping as a consideration… but now that I’m 15 weeks, 2 days pregnant with a pregnancy free from genetic abnormalities and cystic hygromas, it’s become concerning to me that across-the-board, my immunoglobulins (IgA, IgG, and IgM) are crazy low.  Fortunately, my white count, platelets, and everything else look good.

According to an article on NIH, “When a woman treated for CVID gets pregnant the adequate treatment is necessary not only to protect patient from infections, but also to allow sufficient transfer of IgG through the placenta to supply the fetus and consequently the newborn.”  So, I’m talking with my OB and neurology team about whether or not I should start IVIG.  I’ll do whatever they think is best — including finding an immunologist in their hospital network if necessary.  I’m not taking any chances with our daughter’s well-being — medically or legally.

Real Estate Law Is Borked.

Didn’t get the house. Someone came in with a cash offer after us, and so the bank went with them.

I have to be very honest: as someone who studied contracts in multiple classes in law school (heck, almost all of my elective classes were contracts-based), I thought I had a reasonable understanding of the way contract law works. I don’t understand real estate contracts even a little.

I mean, let’s take this house buying experience as an example. A bank lists a house for sale for $150K and advertises it on Zillow, RedFin, and other websites. If you did that with a piece of personal property or with services that you would perform, that would very clearly constitute an offer. But in the wild world of real estate it’s not considered an offer. I honestly don’t know what it’s considered.

In real estate contracts, the purchaser makes an offer to the seller to buy a house that’s been advertised. This puts all the power in the seller’s hands and allows them to pit bidders against one another so they can come out with the best offer for them. Oftentimes, because purchasers are expecting that haggling is a necessary part of the process, they low-ball their first offer.

Can you imagine if this was the way commerce worked for regular goods?


Stand Up For Your Rights

You may notice a new black bar at the bottom of the screen when you view my blog. I’ve joined the fight against the NSA’s unconstitutional collection of American citizens’ phone and internet records.

I’m extremely bothered by the systematic gutting of our 4th amendment rights, and honestly, there’s nothing I can say about it that hasn’t already been said elsewhere. It’s just really not cool that the government is treating all of its citizens like suspected criminals.

If you have a blog, please add the bar. If you tweet, please help raise awareness by using #StopTheNSA. Call a politician. Write an email. Don’t let our government think that we’re tacitly complacent.

Non-Violent Revolution & Ending the Nanny State

One of the things I think a lot about is the corruption of our political and legal systems (and hence way of life) here in America, and trying to figure out how, as a citizen, I can help improve things.

America Is Broken

To put the problem succinctly, the American way of life that I was brought up believing was important to protect no longer exists. It has now become an ideal… a sort of imaginary utopia. As a child, living in that utopia, I was taught not to fear police, but to appreciate them. I grew up in a time where the 4th Amendment’s protections were strong and important. I didn’t need to fear that I would be detained by police because of my thoughts or opinions… but nowadays, it’s genuinely dangerous to write or talk about trying to change the system because planning any sort of revolution immediately falls into the category of terrorism.

It bothers me on a very deep level that we are now living in a nation where every electronic communication, whether it’s a cell phone call, text message, email, FB, Twitter, or a blog entry is automatically being collected by a government intelligence agency. It’s now known that our government can activate any webcam that’s connected to the internet to see what’s happening, even though a federal judge told the FBI not to.

The actions taken by our many intelligence agencies (DHS, FBI, CIA, NSA and regular law enforcement) presume guilt, rather than innocence, on the part of every citizen because it is absolutely impossible to have reasonable suspicion of illegal activity for every single citizen of our country. This kind of surveillance has a chilling effect on both free speech and freedom of association.

Many people are understandably afraid to discuss how bad things have really gotten because they are afraid of being labeled a terrorist. They would rather live as serfs in a country where they are repressed by the upper class and can’t say or do anything to actually affect the government than be jailed because they’re seen as terrorists for wanting a change in public policy to restore our freedom from unwarranted invasions by the government.

It boggles my mind that the kind of country we’re living in right now is the exact same kind of regime that we were taught to rage against and hate as children in school.

I remember in 3rd grade, crying for the kids in the U.S.S.R. who were just cogs in a communist system that didn’t allow them to grow up to be whoever they wanted to be… who couldn’t speak out against their oppression.

I remember the terror I felt as a Jewish girl learning about the political regime in the 1930s and 1940s in Germany, where citizens of many countries were too afraid of the Nazi government to stop the military from killing 20+ million of their friends and neighbors.

And now, in America of all places, we’re afraid of our own military intelligence agencies and police because Congress and the courts have stripped us of our reasonable expectation of privacy in communications with one another. We’re reasonably afraid because we have such a disproportionate amount of our population incarcerated compared to other countries. The USA comprises about 5% of the world population, but has 25% of the world’s prisoners. We have more than two million inmates. Imagine the entire population of Houston, TX. That’s how many people we have in prison.

Sure, people haven’t been thrown in jail simply for casually stating how they feel, but there have been a lot of people who have dealt with police brutality and jail time for protesting both the nanny state and insane wealth disparity in this country. (over 7,700 convictions so far)

I used to be genuinely proud to be American. I used to feel some amount of patriotism. The thing is, the intense upset feeling I have nowadays is probably more like the patriotism of our forefathers. I mean, the Revolutionary War was fought specifically because we didn’t want to be taxed and controlled by a regime that did not represent or protect our interests.

Looking at our current setup, that’s precisely what’s occurring again. 47% of Congress is comprised of members of the top 1% of the population which controls 35.4% of our country’s wealth. That’s incredibly disproportionate. Is it any wonder that Congress keeps passing laws that benefit the 1%, gut the middle class, and hurt the poor? Nothing is a stronger motivation for writing and passing laws that oppress the disenfranchised than self-interest. Shouldn’t Congress be staffed by people who genuinely care about their constituency’s well-being?

And the corruption doesn’t stop with the law makers. Our entire justice system has been so warped by financial corruption that a rich kid in Texas got no jail time whatsoever for a DUI that killed 4 pedestrians because he had “affluenza.” The court actually gave probation for killing 4 people because they believed the defendant was too rich to understand the difference between right and wrong.

Now, I graduated law school. I know all the defenses for DUI by heart. Being rich isn’t one of them. The only way it would make any sense is if they were using an insanity defense, and last time I checked, being rich was not considered a mental illness.

Worse yet, our legal system’s very processes are ripe with racism. That certainly doesn’t seem right for a country that is so bullish about the equality of every person that we’ve made it a part of our constitution.

So What Can We Do About It?

For several years now, I’ve been trying to figure out what I can do to help improve the situation. The unfortunate truth is that without an absurd amount of money, affecting political change from within Congress seems impossible.

Many of my friends have, at times, echoed the sentiment of the French before their bloody revolution where the lower and middle classes murdered their aristocracy. It makes sense. I mean, in France in 1787, their government wanted to tax the rich to fix a deficit problem, and the rich were like “screw that.” That lead to the Great Fear, where the lower class believed the king was conspiring with the upper class against the Third Estate.

The political climate leading up to the French Revolution was similar to our current situation. American citizens believe that the President, Supreme Court, and Congress are firmly in the pockets of an aristocracy of corporations. The 1% screams bloody murder when there is discussion of raising their taxes and throws around bald-face lies, like that taxing the rich negatively affects employment.

One of the toughest questions that we face, as citizens, is how to fight our corporate elite. The Supreme Court decision in Citizens United created two huge problems for the country. It disingenuously equated corporations with people and money with speech. But corporations can’t be killed like people… or jailed… and controlling interest in an American corporation can be held by anyone in the world. Moreover it created a horrible truth for us: If money equals speech, then those with the most money get the loudest voice.

Even if we took a page outta France’s playbook and brutally murdered anyone who makes a million or more per year, the bulk of their money still wouldn’t return to the populace, thanks to the way our tax laws are set up. Most millionaires bank off-shore to take advantage of the protections afforded by other countries.

And then there’s the fact that many of the corporations in our top 1% are, for all intents and purposes, completely lawless. Our banks were first too big to fail and were supported by the populace during hard times caused by bad decisions (many of which were illegal), and now have even been deemed too big to prosecute. The idea that our economy is actually regulated by our laws is a delusion.

Many folks have suggested that we essentially fight fire with fire and create more corporations like Citizens United – ones whose sole purpose is to raise funds from the 99% in an effort to affect Congress with our money all pooled together. The sad truth is that the wealth of the 99% is dwarfed by the money controlled by the 1%. Even if everyone in the 99% banded together and could agree on something (like that would ever happen), we still couldn’t buy Congress because the lawless 1% could outbid us. And then, if they have financial problems because of buying Congress, the 99% would again be forced to bail them out in an effort to stop our economy from imploding.

So, really, what can we do?

Not much. Since Citizens United equated money with speech, the Supreme Court essentially decided that the only way to have a voice in politics is to have money, and lots of it. The only way I know to fight against big corporations is to choose to not give them our money. It may not seem like much, but money is where corporations get a voice and the power to affect our laws. So, we’ve got to vote with our pocketbooks.

1.) Shop at Mom & Pop shops, and stay away from Wal-Mart and other chains like it.
2.) Cook more food at home, and stay away from multinational fast food chains. Support local non-chain restaurants.
3.) Shop from local farms by joining a CSA and shopping at small, local grocery stores. Stop supporting big grocery chains.
4.) Move your money from a “too big to have rules” bank into a local credit union.
5.) Pick up sewing so that you aren’t dependent on big companies for your clothes.

The sad thing is that even if thousands of people did those things, the corporations and millionaires would still have more money than us.

At the end of the day, the only thing I think will make a big enough impact on Congress would be a nationwide strike of workers… but most of America is too poor to be able to afford to go on strike.

If anyone has any other ideas, I’d be really glad to hear them, because I hate to think that we’re living in a hopeless dystopia. We need to reclaim our government.

Much like Lawrence Lessig, I have hope because I love my home.

I’m In Good Company

I’m starting to be more forgiving of myself for failing the CA bar exam twice. It was especially helpful when I read an article about the exam from the Wall Street Journal, written in 2005 (the year I started law school) – here’s the pertinent part:

Kathleen Sullivan is a noted constitutional scholar who has argued cases before the Supreme Court. Until recently, she was dean of Stanford Law School. In legal circles, she has been talked about as a potential Democratic nominee for the Supreme Court. But Ms. Sullivan recently became the latest prominent victim of California’s notoriously difficult bar exam. Last month, the state sent out the results of its July test to 8,343 aspiring and already-practicing lawyers. More than half failed — including Ms. Sullivan. Although she is licensed to practice law in New York and Massachusetts, Ms. Sullivan was taking the California exam for the first time after joining a Los Angeles-based firm as an appellate specialist. The California bar exam has created misery for thousands of aspiring and practicing lawyers. Former California Gov. Jerry Brown passed on his second try, while former Gov. Pete Wilson needed four attempts. The recently elected mayor of Los Angeles, Antonio R. Villaraigosa, never did pass the bar after failing four times.

After reading this, I thought to myself, “Wow, even amazing attorneys and people in strong positions of power fail this exam multiple times — and more than that, you don’t even have to pass to get a job where you make a real difference to society, just look at Mayor Villaraigosa.” It took a lot of the sting out of the shame that I carry with me.  If someone who is described as a legal “rock star” can fail, without having seizures, it only makes sense that I would fail with them.

Actually, that was the second thing I thought. The first one was, “Wow, it must have been really difficult for Kathleen Sullivan to deal with the public embarrassment of failing this exam. I wonder how she handled it.”  And the answer is surprisingly simple: She just took the test again and passed. From everything I see about her on the internet, she just acted like the failure was just a temporary setback.  She’s still a partner at a prestigious firm. She’s still influencing law. She didn’t let failing 1 exam have any power in defining who she is.

Add to this an article ranking the difficulty of the states and their exams. California is #1 as hardest.  IL is #32, and I scored 5 points higher than the average LSAT for the state… so I’m starting to think that if I do want to cling to the hope of becoming an attorney and take this exam, I probably won’t fail.

I think I’m done thinking of myself as a failure because I didn’t achieve the status of attorney in CA. I think it’s time, instead, to focus on what kind of life I actually want to build for myself and to start action in that direction.

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In It For The Parking is offline today, because the US Senate is considering legislation that would certainly kill this site forever. The legislation is called the PROTECT IP Act (PIPA), and would put us in legal jeopardy if we linked to a site anywhere online that had any links to copyright infringement.

This would unmake the Web, just as proposed in the Stop Online Piracy Act (SOPA). We don’t want that world. If you don’t want it either, visit AmericanCensorship.org for instructions on contacting your Senator. The Electronic Frontier Foundation has more information on this and other issues central to your freedom online.



Dr. Oz’s Show on Medical Marijuana

Hey everybody!

My momma let me know that Dr. Oz did a show the other day on medical marijuana, and she was all excited because with me having MS & seizure disorder (and currently dealing with PTSD, though it’s starting to get much better!), it’s been a 180 in my family’s ethics going from a hardcore straight-edge no-drugs stance to being happy with the effects of medicinal cannabis, which has greatly improved the quality of my life. (One of the benefits of livin in CA!)

I believe that the decriminalization of medical marijuana is not only important but necessary to help thousands of people who share similar pains to me. Some of you might be interested in seeing the clips from the show too, so I tried to put them in the order of the show for you.

Medical Marijuana: The Hot Debate, Pt 1.

Medical Marijuana: The Hot Debate, Pt 2.
Montel makes the best points ever about how medical MJ helps and the current hypocrisy in federal law.)

Medical Marijuana and MS: One Woman’s Story,Pt 1.

Medical Marijuana and MS: One Woman’s Story,Pt 2.
My theory is that the bald guy with the glasses is totally unaware that he is the epitome of what a TV pinhead is supposed to be. Real asshole or paid asshole? You tell me. 🙂

Marijuana: Why It’s Prescribed, Pt 1.

Marijuana: Why It’s Prescribed, Pt 2.
This video actually has an epilepsy patient in it!

My seizure disorder is very similar to epilepsy and reacts very much like it. The only major difference between my seizure disorder and epilepsy is that it is not considered epilepsy because the electric activity of my seizures lines up directly with the footprint of the lesions in my brain that were caused by my MS. This is why the Ketogenic Diet (which was developed by my neurologist) won’t work for me, and why many of the usual medications that help folks with epilepsy tend to not work for me. Fortunately medical marijuana does! 🙂

Medical Marijuana: Is It Safe? Pt 1.

Medical Marijuana: Is It Safe? Pt 2.

Medical Marijuana: What This Means to Your State

Also, I thought folks might be interested in what states currently allow medical marijuana and what the laws are, so here is the NORML page that keeps current on all of that.

I hope y’all enjoy! Happy Saturday!