On April 27, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. I almost died immediately afterwards. Turns out that VBAC wasn’t the best choice. The placenta had adhered to my internal c-section scar. It took 3 hours of doctors pulling clots out of me and applying a bakri balloon for a whole 24 hours to stop the hemorrhage.  Totally worth it for this girl.

It’s now been 4 months, and I’m still amazed with her every day. Unfortunately, it’s also meant very little sleep (translation: increased seizure activity) and even less time to write. It’s tough to try to focus on chronicling motherhood with multiple chronic illnesses while in the thick of actually doing the damn thing.  I’d much rather spend my time enjoying these smiles.

One day, probably sooner than I expect, I’ll get back to writing here the way that I used to. But for now, I’ll be busy homeschooling Henry (who would have started public school kindergarten if not for COVID-19 and instead is already halfway through 1st grade math using Prodigy and burning through books recommended to us by Torchlight.), tending to this beautiful baby, and doing the best I can to be a good partner to Adam (who has been an incredible partner to me through all of this).

I hope you’re all doing as well as we are. ❤ Please stay safe.