It’s all about me.
Today has been all about navigating the hoops set by my insurance company and finding my way towards better health.
I set up appointments with a dentist (which is a huge deal, since I haven’t been to a dentist in 8 years), my primary care physician, and a new therapist. I did 3 loads of laundry and a load of dishes. I went grocery shopping with Adam. I was really highly functional, even if I didn’t get “properly” dressed until the late afternoon. (Who cares? No one was here but me.)
Today, I ran into a couple of things on Facebook that really bothered me: more of the perpetuation of “maker” and “taker” stereotyping and then anti-semitism, attaching to the Wall St. bailout and then aimed at me.
“Makers” and “Takers”
The conservative media has started a very bad thought process in the minds of right-leaning Americans. And that thought is that no one deserves any help.
The discussions I’ve had with folks always end up, inevitably, with the person saying at some point, “I believe there are people who need and deserve help, but there are too many people gaming the system.” At this moment, this person has said to me, effectively, “I would rather deny help to people who really need help than to have my kindness taken advantage of.”
This is the problem with the talking heads. They help remove empathy from the common man. They make it acceptable to boil people down into two camps, based on whether or not they receive government money – kicking us into distinct tribes instead of recognizing each other as teammates like we actually are. They have no problem begrudging real people the medicine or the money that they need to survive because they aren’t real people to them. They are subject material to create rants about so that they can fill airtime and get advertisers. They let the needy become their object of hate, calling them “takers,” essentially qualifying the sick and elderly as thieves, so that they can make themselves look better and make more money.
And all the while, it divides our country. It divides our families. It defiles our humanity. It suggests the worst of our society that we can’t even trust each other to care for our elderly and our ill – at least not without making them the object of scorn and degradation.
Antisemitism can suck it.
Speaking of degradation, I ran into antisemitism on Facebook today. I’m not going to go into the whole situation because it’s shitty, but I have to say that there’s a lot of neo-Nazi propaganda going around recently, and as someone who was born Jewish and who still believes in One God, I don’t like it one bit. I’m not digging on how much I have to deal with controlling triggers I have over a fear of a dystopic future where we have to deal with a second Holocaust. I don’t like how many parallels I see in our American society today to 1930’s Germany. And I’m not good with history. Don’t get me wrong – I’m not saying, “Obama is Hitler,” or any of that shit, but we’re awfully lucky he’s not. We’ve got a nation that could easily polarize against “the bankers.” It’s a good thing that banks in America hire people of every race and religion. I think it’s the fact that we’re committed, as a nation, to being “the good guys” – to being tolerant and loving towards everybody – that makes it so much less likely that we’ll have that kind of terrible future.
That, and there’s always the words of wisdom that my brother, Daniel, taught me: there are too many people who are deeply devoted to the status quo for any of that shit to happen here. Whenever I lose hope and freak out, I can bring myself to normalcy by remembering that.
A Hopeful Future
We can’t be the good guys if we don’t take care of our elderly and our ill, but we’ll be better than the bad guys if we don’t have WWIII right here. Maybe we’ll luck out and society will show me that it can be better than I believe. Right now, I’ll settle for just making it through another day without a seizure and with the ability to keep doing housework without thoughts of suicide. Happily, I’ve got a funk/soul/disco station that I found on Spotify today, and it’s making folding the clothes go a lot faster.