Crazy as it might sound, I think I’m finally, just now, finally getting back to myself… recovering from the stress of the bar exam… from the 100% stopping of life but for the eat-sleep-study-worry-blog/waste-time-on-Facebook cycle.
I actually showered today instead of taking a bath!
I know that might not sound like much, but standing, for more than 10 minutes, in cool water versus laying in warm water is a big difference. It requires a lot more energy. And I had it in me today. 🙂
Not only that, but yesterday I wrote a horribly bad song and ran to the other room to record it before I realized how bad it was and decided not to record it. BUT I DID NOT RIP UP THE LYRICS! So, there’s that. Progress. I’m beginning to get out of my own way there at least. I can show the song-o-the-day for March 12. 🙂 I have yet to write one for March 13, but I’m confident I will write… something by the end of the day.
I know that my most pressing commitment at the moment that I’ve been neglecting has been the MS Walk. I haven’t done anything to really ask for donations or to bother people to join my team. Right now, I’m the team leader of a team of three. Now don’t get me wrong, we are an awesome team of three, but I really envisioned Cripplocalype 2010 being a great HOARDE of people. So I’m asking because I really want people to walk with me and have fun together, please, whether you can afford to contribute even 1 CENT of your own money – PLEASE, JOIN CRIPPLOCALYPSE 2010 AND HELP US BRING AN END TO MS!. I promise, there may be other teams, but none will make fun of themselves as hard as we will, and none will rock so hard. m/
Speaking of things that rock SO hard – few things are as fucking metal as weight-lifting. Starting this week, I’m getting back into using free weights after months and months of what can only be described as muscle atrophy. No matter how much it sucks, I’m going to try to use the same gumption I used every day to study in order to make myself exercise – because I know it’s something that I genuinely DO want to do, whether I feel like I want to do it or not. I mean, hey… it’s worked out so far, right?
This week is looking like it’s going to be good. I’ve got lunches set up with friends. I’m trying to do things. I’m trying to always be better and do more – whether or not it messes with SSDI. I want to be better. Better is always the objective. Better is the best possible thing. And I’ve been feeling pretty good. I just wish it were good enough to be really looking forward to the board game night tonight. It’s only 6 pm right now and I’m so ready to go to bed.
Oh well! I could sleep all day anyway. Do I take another 5 hr energy or do I go for a Red Bull? Believe it or not, one is actually more healthy than the other here. *lol* Last 5 hr energy I had was at 10 am.